I have experienced a broken heart, broken thoughts that fill my head, and all of that seems to lead up to a sense of losing self at times.
I was a slave to the distorted image of myself in the mirror, the one that said I wasn’t good enough or pretty enough or just enough of whatever, and all that led to where I am today, and all i want today is to be where God wants me. Its just the thought of "Am I really where I need to be right now?"
Today was one of those days where I was feeling totaally overwhelned about everything that was going on around me. It was just one of those times where my feelers were going crazy over every little thing. My mind was going crazy with a lot of thoughts concerning what my next step should be. I know that if I surrender my thoughts and troubles to the Lord he will take care of it but I recently learned that having faith also requires action and obedience. The hard part is what actions I should take in order to help God shove me in the right direction.
Lately, I have been faced with a lot of decision making and I think i have way too much time on my hands to break down, and analyse what I should do, and how I should do it. oh my goodness! this whole decisions decisions thing is kind of stressfull. Most of all I really hate the way it drives me crazy every second of the day. The whole feeling of how I can't make up my mind about anything at all and not sure about anything, and everything. It also bothers me how one little thing can trigger a millions memories and drive me crazy. It's funny how I don't really demand a real answer or even an explanation to my thoughts or troubles. All i yearn for is a little guidance in the right right direction from the big man up above my LORD and SAVIOR . It is my desire to do what is honorable in his eyes not mine or anyone elses. <3 FmNN
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LORD HAVE YOUR WAY IN ME.
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