I would like to start off by saying that I' have been ill lately with the flu; but this morning i woke up bright and early (which is amazing). I was kind of shocked because I usually don't wake up until after 1pm and sometimes 2pm. So, i started of my day feeling a little bit better than before. Everything was going well and I happily did my little routine before I go to bible study. Which is: buy a BIG cup of coffee, and eat something. Then I sat through bible study listening and learning from God;s word. I also had fun laughing on the inside at some peoples remarks to questions that were being asked. Then, all of a sudden when it was time to get in the car and make our journey back home...I see him following my sister to my moms car. UGH.!!!! My heart just totally dropped.! I knew exactly what was going on the second I seen him there in the church parking lot. To be honest I used to think my sister boyfriend was a good guy; but as time went on his true colors shined through. I know we all waited around to let him adjust and even allowed him into not only into her life but into our family life. Now all he is doing is showing how totally ignorant, selfish, immature, and a total coward he really is and thats just a nice way of saying it. We as family have waited for him to change in a positive way and try to encourage a healthy relationship between them but he just seems to take everything for granted. His heart is hard, his eyes are covers, and his ears are shut. He not only shuts himself off to us but to my sister as well, and most importantly to GOD--the Big Man Upstairs. No relationship will work without God in your life- that a fact. I would just like to say I did get really mad and yes i might have gotten louder and louder as I talked to him. But i was totally heated, and wasn't afraid to speak my mind. It breaks my heart to think that my sister cares so much for him but he still does not care that he is hindering her walk with God on the straight and narrow pathway but pulling her away from her family and God-especially. What makes me even more saddened is that she is allowing him to because she has this love for him. But does he love her? If he loved her would he make her turn her back on her family and everything we taught her. It makes me wonder why she hasn't learned from my mistakes. Why does she want to follow down the road of destruction when there is a 100% chance that she is going to be the one hurt in the end. I guess even though she has seen the same thing happen she won't know what it is until she experiences it first hand-which breaks my heart because I know the feeling all too well. Theres a HUGE part of me that knows she's way better than all of that and not to mention WAY SMARTER. I just pray that she makes the right decision. I told her he's never going to change he is to caught up in his own little world where everything he does is right in his eyes but really...he need's to just grow the "f" up and come back to reality where he can see you cant sit at two tables at once and expect to feast.! It;s humanly IMPOSSIBLE.!

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